Day 7–53 to go…
As I write this, I am sitting in my living room, the seagulls are waking up and making noise as they usually do around this time of the morning. It’s 05:58 on a Sunday morning and I am not hungover from the night before — this would explain why I have been wide awake since 5am and am already a cup of tea down.
Yesterday me and B went for an early morning swim. Usually on a Saturday morning I would be nursing some form of hangover or if I was lucky, just feeling really groggy with no energy or desire to do anything except lay in bed for another couple of hours. Today however, I am ready for another early morning swim, followed by a session on the Peloton — some might call it my newfound addiction. Did you know that many addicts replace one addition with another?
Okay, so I get you might be thinking: “Calm down mate, it’s been a week, come back to me when you hit a month of this.” Which in some respects is a fair point; but I’m celebrating the little wins, as this is what’s keeping me going.
As I’ve previously mentioned, I’ve started reading Catherine Gray’s The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober this week and I am LOVING IT! I’m 116 pages in and it’s like Cath has got into my head and written elements of my journey with alcohol and published a book about it. It’s equally terrifying and eye-opening.
In fact, there was one bit where she talks abouts her listening to Magic FM and downing a bottle following a breakup with a boy — sis, I hear you! Of course, me being me, I’ve already slid into Cath’s DM’s on Twitter to say how much her book resonates with me and to thank her for it. She’s not replied yet, but we’ll see. I need to high five this incredibly strong lady. I’ll write a full review once I’ve finished reading it and so do keep an eye out if you’re interested.
From the title of this piece, you may be wondering if my aim is to only go sober for 60 days (wrong!), I just like to set the bar high for myself so decided this was going to be my first hurdle to celebrate. You see, I’ve successfully gone a month(ish) without drinking many times before, so I know this is something I can already do, so I’ve set the bar to 60 days — Watch this space!
My usual dry month is January — “…groundbreaking!” (10 points to you if you get the movie reference) which is generally the easiest month as I’ve been on leave over Christmas, drank daily throughout the time I’ve been off work, which is usually a good 10–14 days, and of course there’s usually others doing it too. This time though it’s August, we’re in the middle of a heatwave (a rare occurrence for the UK) and there are social events coming at me left, right and centre. In fact, I have my first BBQ gathering today since going sober. Of the eight of us, only half of the attendees are currently unaware of my newly found sobriety. I feel somewhat nervous, but I thought it would be a good occasion to test out the new me in a public setting.
I have an (AA) meeting just beforehand, which I’m pretty psyched up for. It’s my third ever AA meeting, the second time at this particular one, and to be honest, I’m really excited about it. That shit is EYE-OPENING! A bit like when you put a new outfit on, and it fits you a lot more than you originally anticipated. The people in these groups are incredibly lovely, supportive and caring. After two sessions in I’m already wanting to catch up with both groups to see how they are doing.
I also discovered a fellow member of the LGBTQ+ community on Twitter who celebrated three years of sobriety yesterday — amazing! Turns out there’s a lot of sober-turned peeps out there — more than I realised!
On that note, I need to eat something and make another tea before walking down to the beach for an early morning swim.
Who is this new me? I don’t know him that well yet, but I sure like his energy!
Originally published at https://www.thesobrietysquad.com on August 8, 2020.